Learn From This

           2 days ago, after one of my classes and on my back to my car, I saw one of the students whom I like I.F, standing there with one of the teachers and another guy, also with the chief of security, so I went there, to say hello…

            So I did, and told my teacher to take good care of I.F because she is a good student, yani a push from me… then I.F’s face went red and green, telling me that the guy beside me is her fiancé, I was surprised because I just knew that she had one, so I start talking with him, telling him how I.F is a good lady, emphasizing on her good spirit, and how she helped me getting my current job, then I noticed I.F confused and a yellowish face appeared, so I tried to cut the conversation, after she told that guy that I’m a student and a new employee at the Bank, I told the guy “NEYALAK 3ala hek benet”, and boom bam I continued my way to my car, behind me was a friend of mine, and he saw everything, (I think)…

            An hour later that friend called me telling me that thanks to me, I.F broke her relation with her fiancé, I was shocked… why what did I do… he told me that the her fiancé thought that I.F is that kind of girls who talk with this guy and that guy, I answered him FCUK HIM, I.F is a good lady, that I really respect, and yes because of her work, she should be dealing with men from different kinds, and by the way she is in her 30’s (I think), then he told me that Dr. M.Sh the teacher who was there told the guy that I.F is an excellent student… so it’s not my fault, it’s a shared one, yet I think that there no fault, but it may be that her fiancé is one of those MEN, then my friend asked me not to talk with I.F, so I will do, I told him…

            Deep inside me, I was wondering why she told him to pass this massage, yani she could call me and tell me so and so, and what if he is making things bigger, or what if nothing was there all what happened is that I.F told him to tell me that in order not to reach I.F again when she is with her fiancé to avoid saying things I shouldn’t say…

            The next, I discussed this thing with couple of my colleges at work, and they all insured that I did a good thing, a super thing, yet a normal, and indeed if they broke, I helped I.F from this guy… but a minute later I.F called me, and she was MAD actually more than that, she repeated the same thing, I couldn’t say a thing, because she didn’t give me the chance, and she insured that I don’t say good morning to her or anything, telling me that my condition is bad at work, though I think the opposite, if she don’t do a thing, anyways she closed the phone in my face…

            I lost her, yes, but I want to know the truth…

I want to say something to those guys, EVEN WHEN YOU MARRY YOUR LADY YOU DON’T OWN HER, she can talk with whom ever she want, to limits of course, and to all of you ladies, open your eyes more, look what is behind their masks, because HARAM to fall with someone like this person, as for me, yes, I will let my lady do what ever she want to a limit, I would be happy to introduce me to her male friends, because I will take certain information about my lady from them….

Anas Z Talhouni

Every day I should face the same felling, the felling of embarrassment, saying: “sorry mate, I have other engagements”, the feeling of disappointing a friend of mine by apologizing to join him somewhere, the reason is not because I have other things or because there are no place to go, or because I feel bored going with this very person, its only because I know that I will pay huge amount of money for nothing

I’m not rich to catch action here and there, I’m an average income person, I’m not a KA7TUT (stingy), but sometimes I feel like it’s HARAM to pay this amount of money for a silly billy boom thing, but people simply around me thinks that I am a ka7tout (cheap)…

Well, again, I want to emphasis, it’s getting costly to go out, even for a cup of coffee, even to Hashem Restaurants for Falafel and χoumus.

Ok, why when I bring to them this free invitation to this XYZ music concert they start giving excused and as usual silly ones, it’s my way of socialization…!!!

A trip to the cinema will cost me at least 15 JDs

IS THIS LOGIC

 But sometimes you need to go, khalas even if you don’t want, it’s only to WHAT, only to go with them, and to show that you are not cheap.

Wallahi I can’t afford going everyday to this place and that place, I’m repeating my-self here I know, but I just can’t find words, to explain the situation to you…

Yet another point, I want to draw your attention to is, OB OB OB when this person invites you to something, OB OB OB, this only means you will invite him some day, ok, hardly I have money for my own orders, yani from where I shall get money to invite him… Boro Boro

            Mom and dad give me tons amounts of money, but wallahi I would like to know where those money goes, I sometime collect the recites from here and there to catch up with my budget, I found that things are ok, 5 jds here 4 jds there1.5 for this 3 for that, and boom you paid 40-60 jds in one day… allah akbar ya nas

            Yani before going this mishwar we should think 1000 times, even after going out, believe I am not focusing with the guys and the people that I’m with, I would like to know where my mind is, wallahi if I have problems here and there I will be more comfortable than I am there, yani I don’t take the joy of the gathering, as if I am not there and where I am… I’m in la la land… and it becomes a habit and a must having a fight with the restaurant manger because of the bad quality food or service, wallhi I used to be that dancing singing guy, wat is happing ya nas, I want to cry but the tears are not coming out,

            Lets talk about this incidence.. my friend louy called me to join him to this party in Aqaba, I told him from the very first call: “wallhi I can’t” I thought its going to cost me at least 100 jd, I can’t afford paying this amount, actually I don’t have those and will never have them for a beeeep trip to Aqaba, then he start pushing me, so I told him yes, for the sake of avoiding his ble bla about me, then I closed my mobile, haram, wallhi haram el kezeb…

            At last this is a massage for you guys, If any of you wants to see me and visit me, you are more than welcome to come either to my office or even to my home… it’s cheaper Yani

Feneto…

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>كم في المقابر من يحسدونك على هذه الأيام والليالي التي تعيشها

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>يتمنون لوتسبيحة أواستغفار ينفعهم عند ربهم

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>أوسجدة تنير قبورهم أوصدقة تظلهم بين يدي الملك الجبار

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>..فقط تذكر.. ولا تضيع الفرصة التي بين يديك

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>بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم وبه نستعين

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>هــل تريــد أن يصبــح وجهــــك كالقمـــر يــوم الحســــاب ؟؟

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>أكثر من قول

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>لاإله الا الله

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>قال النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم :

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>ليس على أهل لا اله إلا الله وحشه في الموت ولا في القبور ولا في النشور

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>كأني انظر إليهم عند الصيحة

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>ينفضون رؤوسهم يقولون الحمد لله الذي اذهب عنا الحزن

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>رواه الطبراني عن ابن عمر رضي الله عنهما

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>وقال النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم :

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>ليس من

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>عبد يقول لا اله إلا الله مائة مره إلا بعثه الله تعالى يوم القيامة

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>ووجهه كالقمر ليلة البدر ولا يرفع لأحد يومئذ عمل أفضل من عمله إلا من قال مثل

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>قوله أو زاد

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>رواه الطبراني عن أبى الدرداء رضي الله عنه

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>وقال النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم :

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>ليس يتحسر أهل الجنة على شيء إلا على ساعة مرت بهم لم يذ كروا الله عز وجل

>فيها

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>رواه الطبراني والبيهقي عن معاذ رضى الله عنه

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>فأكثروا من قول لا اله إلا الله

When you walk a gentle breeze plays with your hair, reflecting the reddish of your cheeks,

Since the first day I saw you, my heart couldn’t find a place to rest,

In a dark night when the rain falls gently I will take a break and search for love, I cant fall asleep at nights, coz my heart yells for us to be together

I wait for you every night, some night in a dark night you will come, that’s for sure, maybe tonight because hop I can hear the sound of the santur, but where are you… yes I will be crying without shame like the sound of the santur,

But I know that when you open your eyes and look at the new morning day, you will remember the old days where my heart and soul was with you…

But hope is there, a way to run from the upset feelings

I will place flowers on the path near it… I will always leave that flower for you, for that may your heart comes again

How lucky you are there, getting close to her

Your distance has wounded my heart and made a problem in my balance, its not my fault nor your, but because I placed you in my heart and cant forget that feeling where I wake to see you to feel you

Let your passion heal this wound

don’t, I beg you don’t do anything to ruin your love for me, don’t ruin your chance with me, because as I always say a new sun will always rise…

Anas Z Talhouni

23-4-2007

          They once told me that living here (on earth) is impossible without friends, it’s true, but I’m positive that after you read this article you would appreciate life more without friends (in a way or another).

            It’s true, I always say: “you always need someone to share your moments with”, indeed sharing is the most wonderful action that any of us can do, but to a certain point and limit, and having those bunch of friends can ruin your life in a minute, lets talk about the five kind of friends that you must have, then we will talk about my best friend, followed by some stories related to my friends!!!

1-     the forever friend: do I need such friend, sometimes yes, yet I prefer not to, because I know sooner or later this friend will do that one thing that I cant forgive him doing it, as a result I will loose him and his memories,  as well as my memories with him, so to avoid the nine yards, I don’t believe in this kind of friendship, usually he is your high school friend, well as for me I was busy spending time doing problems here and there.

2-     The work friend: I will have this friend if I want to leave my work fast, actually if I want to be fired or something, because work friends are only good in putting me in troubles and doing ASAFEEN, those people only talks about dreamy dreaming thing (guys I have my dreams no need for someone to build them for me), they also talk about WORK after work, as if I can get enough of work and my bosses stories…

3-     The feel good friend: no one make you feel good, unless there is a benefit of giving you this feeling, no cares to credit you if there is nothing for him, guys think deep and reasonably you will find it impossible to have this friend.

4-     The direct friend: no one is like this anymore, people like to take you left and right up and down, no one is willing to give you the exact thing you want, or want to hear, by the way I’m this kind of friends

5-     The hanging-out friend: as if there are still people to do this with them, or there is money to do this anymore, those can only bring nervous to you, I want to go here, no I want to go there, as a result you will not go to the place that you want, simply because you don’t want to disappoint your friend, FCUK it I will go to the place that I want either with or without you, preferably without you, because I will enjoy it more, I know

Your sister or brother, I can’t consider them friends because they are family, and my hobby friend is always a weird friend whom I can’t by the way find him/her till now

            I know there are many kinds left, but those were the main friends that you should have, there is this one friend that I will talk about him tomorrow, this one friend should be always with you

I would appreciate having your comments and suggestions…

Well, I though at last I’m going to have this decent job that I want, but seems I was wrong…

Ten days ago, I was chatting with a lady from my university, and it seems she liked me (who doesn’t), concluding this from asking me to give her a copy of my CV, so wallahi the next day I went to her office at Cairo Amman Bank, they told me to set and do that exam, that I didn’t have a clue that I am going to do, but told my self: “what the hell I will do it”, as usual question were out from space, but Hopa Hopa I did pretty well in it, I went up stars to that lady from my university, she told me prepare your self for the interview tomorrow, you will meet a guy who like to irritate people… so the next day I went back to the bank, and did the interview, fantastic my performance was there, the guy liked me a lot, and without hesitation he considered me in… so I asked  in, in what.

They told me about this “Future Bank” program, were they train fresh graduate on different fields of the bank, for a period of four months, in a five star hotel, (intercontinental (5 minuets from my home walking)) with a breakfast, and from 9-3, with a reasonable salary of 250 JD, so I told my self Wooo-Hooo found my job, the only point was I should sign a contract to work with them for two years, then I told my self two years is nothing, lets do it…

I went back home to prepare my papers, and my certificates, they asked me to do some tests so I went to do them, thank GOD everything was fine, and to do this ADAM MAHKOUMEYAH which took 5 hours of my life knowing that it should only take maximum 30 minuets…. Bas Yalla no problem, I will discuss this issue in the future…

Two days later I went back to the bank to give my papers, we went down to the meeting room in order to meet the HR to explain to us what is this future bank… they told us that it’s a training course and we are trainees, we should be at holiday inn hotel from 8-3:30 daily in a formal suit and shaved… I was boomed, what????

8am, that means waking up at 6:30, because I need to leave at 7:30 to find a taxi that will cost me 2.2 JD at least per journey, yani 4.5 daily, yani 99 JD monthly, what….

250-100=150-35 (Daman+Dareba+Lagnah-Egtema3eya)=115 what the ****  I will not work from 8-3:30 for those 115, especially and I should sign a contract to work with them for two years with the exact same salary during the two years, and not confirming having a better title job, and if I quit working I should pay huge amount of money while if they don’t want me they do pay nothing…and the worst news that a girl I know from there who is too arrogant and unprofessional will take care of us, whom I know her… Yani all my news and bla bla I will do will be delivered to my parents…

            But then again there is a chance to be in a good position in the bank, thanks to my efforts and hard work..

I don’t know should I take or wha